email: FW: FW: Hi

I know you've said I've made you feel like I was your father sometimes. I will be there to roll with you, not control you. I will be the man that grabs you and kisses you. I am. When the tears flow, I will not try to fix the problem first. I will listen first, touch you first. Problem solving is for after the emotions. The emotions are there so we know when there is hurt or anxiety or worry. I am not scared of them anymore.

I accept all you are, not what I thought I wanted you to be. All pieces of you are what makes you T., I know that now, not one part needs fixing or changing. I did not fall in love with who I thought you could be. I fell in love with all of you, all the parts that make you whole. I so wish I could write this better.

Little stupid things that make me upset with myself I'm so done with. Like talking in the check out line. Buying you a pack of cigarettes, I can.

I want to walk into a bar, a restaurant, a party, and everybody wonder who the happy couple is.

I don't want to waste another year. I want to cry of joy. I've given into my feelings, I am not scared to love you and all that it brings. It is all I want to do. 100% trust, 100% open heart, 100% open mind.

I will regret not doing my best to give you all my feelings and thoughts. It's only something I can improve over the rest of my life.

Driving back from the beach today, I wished A. was not sitting next to me. I so wished he was in the back seat. I want to look over and see your beautiful face.

I love you T.. I know you know that. But I think you new that more than I. I just hope I can catch up to you.