email: FW: Thanks my friend

S.,
I know I hurt her and should have been there, even though she broke up with me, and of course never hurting her on purpose. After all the the things we've been through, if what I've written and said is not enough, then I am forever screwed.

She's OK with being in a worthless relationship, but knowing there is one that could be the last one she ever is in, and she doesn't make that leap... I don't know what else to do. I can not believe it. I know I can be the one. It's like she just doesn't want to be safe. I need someone to wake her up (and have smacked me earlier).

Thanks for being a good friend. I'm going to be really down. It won't show as much as I feel. I'm going to recoil some, close down and in, I need to do that, just don't let me get too low.

-me