Just a Chance for a Second Chance

She asked me to visit for the weekend. The 10 hour drive has hard, so hard with the time alone, no distractions, no chance to change the subjects going through my mind. But I have one destination, back into her heart. I am superman, I will travel anywhere. I was so anxious, nervous, and just wacked out to see her again. I met her on campus outside her computer lab. She is so beautiful. A hug, a long hug.

The weekend was as if we hadn't been apart. Cuddling, touching, flirting. Doing dishes, cooking, cleaning, laundry. She even called me "sweetie" one time. It nearly felt like we were still together - except for kissing and sex (so not the point of the weekend). Well, she kissed me one time, one long kiss, just to see if the spark was still there - it is - such a euphoria when we kiss.

Would have been more than I hoped except for the mixed signals. So mixed.

Me: "You need to get a VA license plate to help with residency status." She: "Ya, if I stay I'll do that."
She: "Hey, sweetie."
She: "Can you unbox all my books?"
She: "Will you sleep next to me?"
She: "I need you just to be a friend now."
She: "I miss having you here."

I'm going batty. I'm sure my cats think I'm insane.