Karma is True

I now know the personal agony, the despair, the inability to breathe, the lack of regard for self-worth, self-care, the malfunctioning mind, the endless tears, the screams so hard you want your lifeless soul to escape and snuff out your hapless body. She endured my early emotional immaturity, my lack of good coping skills from a long, "perfect", pain-free, and nearly love-free previous relationship, contributed to the suffering. My previous love understandings did not place her above all else, I still found things to worry about how others would think, and I did not fully embrace her flaws. I did not trust myself, I did not understand the love in me.

I have given all I could during our times together, I have made a wonderful memories for us, as she has. I helped her through horrible days, her toughest decisions. I have a lot of good karma, also. I so need to find in it enter her heart and mind. I have discovered so much from the way she loves, what it really means. I need to be tested on it. I need to show her how much I have learned.

Can karma please bring me the second chance? I have tried so hard my whole life to do the right things, to be the good soul, to be the one there when needed. Can all the work to get me here be enough to get me to her side again? I am crying so hard right now.